Man I'm tired!
Not sure what to say...I haven't written a journal that isn't commission related in quite a while. I don't like talking about work all the time, but...when it's all you have time for not much can be done XD!
I wanted to work on a friend's piece this weekend (a gift) but truth is I bought Lighting Returns: FF13 and well...it's quite addictive! I've been playing around 2 hours a day in my free time every weekday, but yesterday and today I got a little carried away and the clock just seemed to spin around on me and before I knew it I had no time or energy left for drawing! XD
I've also got quite into my kitbasjing of TF figures again, and yesterday night I got stuck into this:
He has come quite a long way since this last pic. He doesn't look much different but last night I spent a lot of time making the actual fixtures, since what you see here is all held together with temporary blue tak and things
He's coming together nicely. I had lot's of fun using the left over construct bot pieces to build some crazy-ass weapon kibble thingy for the back of the truck. He currently looks like he drove through a lego factory...but god knows toys are fun!
I'm just too tired today. I had a plan, but as I say the game got too addictive! I've been meaning to write something here for a while so thought I might as well do this instead. I've started up a new routine for my work week-using it has allowed me 2 hours of rest per day, plus one hour working on my own art, which currently is the above mentioned gift for my best friend...but I haven't heard from her in a while. She was busy with events last time I heard from her. Anyways, once the gift is done and I've posted it to her, I'm sure she'll be happy for me to share it here, so you guys can finally see something that's not commissioned work
On a personal level, I'm not sure how I'm feeling. I'm on auto-pilot, really. Work is important, I'm at a point where I need to focus on making more money...that sadly leaves not much time or brain space for other stuff, or life in general. As I say, I got Lighting returns and that has picked up my spirits a bit. Something new in the day, and I am happy to say it has broken a lot of the problems with FF13 and FF13-2 (though not all of them. Battle system has it's restrictions still, and I won't name names but one character hasn't changed the bloody record since FF13-2! Seriously, even the boss fight is the same scenario. An entire mission dedicated to going around the same circle, his story hasn't changed one bit...still the same droan along stuff... Tedious character! God knows FFX's Seymour is more fun!) BTW, please no talking about the game story...I don't want spoilers from those who may be further than me!
It is the best of the 3 though, which is sad since it has only Lighting and I love Vanille, Fang and Serah. I miss my party. But it is fun, what with all the quests.
I actually had quite a fun discussion at a fan sub forum the other week-I decided to weigh in on their translation choices discussion. I'm a super sentai/ Kamen rider fan you see, and ToQger has just started. I took the time to read some of their decisions, all of which I agreed with, but there were some curious folk with some odd complaints, so I jumped in. I love the Japanese language, and over the years I have learned and picked up quite a bit. It was good to have a conversation about something other than art, y'know. Sometimes I feel like a giant pencil...especially to those who know me here, or friends I make at cons. Example, here's afew things about me that have nothing to do with art:
I love Transformers (OK, you knew that) I'm a full on collector. I love odd re-paints and my goal is to own at least one of every masterpiece mold. I am still missing 1 Binaltech figure, and 3 alternators figs, again a line I want to complete. My favourtite series is Beast Wars, and I love the Japanese side of the fiction. My favourite character is Hot-Rod. I relate to him quite a bit...
I'm a huge fan of Koda Kumi. Have been for at least 7 years. I got to know her through the Cutey Honey movie, she did the soundtrack. I really fell in love when I knew she was Lenne from FFX-2, my favourite FF game. I love that she has a creative and artistic style. She can be over the top but I like that. I need an artsy woman
I love LOVE Keiko Kitagawa! I mean seriously. She was Sailor Mars 10 years ago, and the woman just gets better. Again, she has a real artistic soul...you can just see it in her. She isn't perfect as an actress all the time, I think. But I like that. I'm not perfect as an artist, 90% of what I do is not good, and I'm never satisfied, and I know she feels the same. I disagree that she is not good, or worthy of her fandom and fame, I believe she is, but I can relate to how she feels. I want to give her a hug!
I love reading her blogs and her facebook page is awesome! It's good to know some of the person behind the roles. She really is a good woman with a true sense of doing a good job and loves her fans.
I love pizza (TMNT had too much influence on me XD)
I love cats. We currently have 6. My best friend is my cat Mullet. (she has a black patch on her head that looks like an 80's mullet) She always wants to play when I am working ¬_¬
I'm a child of the 80's! My favourite music is Gun's n Roses, Skid Row (who I met back in the 90's...I was 13 and speechless...) I still love the toons from back then; He-Man, Thundercats (good dammit Thundercats rocks!) TMNT, Ulysees 31, Jayce and the wheeled warriors. These are the things that made the man you are currently watching 8D As you know I love the anime from back then, of course I had to get into that afterwards, but now I love it all. The art style, the characters, the stories...awesome! I am currently watching dirty pair and Dancouga. Somebody get me a tardis!
I love talking about philosophy, especially dissecting the innate human traits that lie behind religion. I have an interest in all religions (and culture) I love myths too. I am always fascinated by how the ancient greeks and Romans used the planets as guide posts almost...it's fascinating how astrology evolved into religion, y'know? I really wish I could see how people lived and thought back then...I mean people say they were less technologically advanced...and they probably were in some ways, but it wasn't the tech that made them; it was the way they thought and viewed the universe. I think back then they had a much more honest view of the world we live in, not corrupted or influenced by notions of fantasy or magic people sent by gods. I mean greek myth is of course based on associating a god with a planet, as per the Roman way. (Zeus=Jupiter, for instance) But they built from what the saw.
Did you know Lucifer means 'bringer of light' and is actually associated with the planet Venus? Known as the morning star as it was observed to shine the brightest in the morning, even brighter than the sun, but faded out quickly. This is the story of Lucifer, a being that looked to be more powerful than god, but ultimately fell. The origins of what we know of these religious figures isn't one of magic and divinity...but from a story telling standpoint the evolution from universal and celestial natural forces, and man's perception of, is much more fascinating.
People have their heads so far into fantasy I truly think they miss the real wonders this world has. What's more interesting? being made by some divine being (thus segregating us as a species, since one god only made one race. ethnicity etc) or the fact that all of us ALL OF US are simply made of stardust particles, the very raw material of the universe, made as a star dies it goes on to form a new star, and fills that star with life of all kinds, the ultimate form of the circle of life? It may sound too scientific, but honestly...what isn't magic about the random chaos that is your own being? Sure, it sounds cool to say 'hey this big dude made me for a purpose' but...y'know why give him all the credit. You are a lump of stardust, formed into the physical form you are via random chaos theory, and the only thing forming your soul and character is you. Yes, you. Not somebody else, as per the convenient theory; YOU!
I'd just like to point out I am not a scientologist.
I have nothing against those who are religious either, but I much prefer to view the world through untainted eyes, viewing each thing as it's own, rather than coming in with pre-packed boxes to shoe horn things into. Chaos. Embrace it. As a person, I've always been chaotic, and that's not a bad thing. No 2 things have to match, you're not a character from a novel that has to stick to the traits laid out in your character bio.
As you can see I like to ramble, ultimately. But I have a lot of shizz in my head, and ultimately I think that is why I am an artist. To explore these things...y'know the things you can't give words....and now I'm back to talking about art ¬_¬'.....
I'm lonely, and very silly man. Hopefully one day that will change. But, y'know I thought of something the other day...I always thought I wanted to bust out of my cage, but I don't think that is who I am. I don't want to get out...I want to bring people in...
I'm not good at it, though. I've made a lot of mistakes and even now have one regret...a girl I let go and pushed away with my backwards personality. It was nearly 10 years ago, now. But I digress...you don't want to know my silly stories of lost loves. Somebody kick me, please. My level of idiocy is off the scale and my arse needs put into gear!
I spent the last hour fiddling with my Go! Combiners. I have the sword bot team. If you get creative you can make them look better than the official instructions.
Oh, this last 2 weeks has been fun....the lock on our front door broke! Had to spend 2 weeks working out how to bust it out and replace it! XD This lead me to buy a dremmel tool...god I love this thing! Kit bashing is so much easier now! I've leveled up!!
I'm gonna order a chinese and watch some Maskman now.